Guilt and Closure
Thursday, March 5th, 2009When we have to make difficult choices. When we have to take on the responsibility of putting an animal down, there are always the ‘what ifs’.
I remember when I had to do this.
He was in pain. His eyes were sealed shut. He was weak. I made a choice. And he left this earth. What a responsibility we take on. And we are not God. We are not all seeing. We do not know how it would have turned out.
We just do the best we can in our humanness. We are imperfect, and so the question remains “Did I do the right thing?”
Sometimes this question can haunt us. Make us lose sleep. Wish that we did not have to be the responsible one, the grown up.
The answers are in sharing with others. Let others support you. Let others help carry your burden of responsibility. It will take the burden off your shoulders.
I just poured out my heart, hoping it would help me let go. What I received in return was strength, support, and love. Sharing is the access to all of humanity. To remind us that we are all living the same life.
When you are in pain, especially from loss, you need to share it with others. Allow them to hold you up. For when you are strong again, you can do the same in return.